tisoki

so it’s 3am and i’m in the middle of nowhere, norham i think it’s called…. i’ve been at this studio since 5 straight mixing. I’m now in an old room on a sofa huddled up with my backpack and a sleeping bag as well as my laptop, there’s still music blasting and i don’t think i’ll be sleeping tonight. I’ve been thinking to myself that if we keep thinking pessimistic about ourselves, we’ll die sad right?  well yeah… essentially we will… because we’ll be pessimistic about dying… anyway, i’m hella fuckin’ bored right now and i’m completely lonely as sad as it sounds, i’ve really fucking started to miss the people who are close to me, being away from home for any amount of time is horrible, even if i did only leave friday, i hope to god i can just go home soon and chill the fuck out with my girl haha, this whole traveling shit is so fucking stressful, having to be at the specific place at the specific time, i’d rather just be at home with the one that matters watching family guy or some shit, but anyway, that soppy stuff can fuck off. i really need a cigarette, yeah, really fucking badly.

i fucking hate arrogant people ueieryudfbheiduh

i remember when i used to have 2,000 followers and then got bored and deleted my account so excuse the shit theme and picture with no amazing hipster shit, i just want to keep this simples. :)

so i need somewhere to vent, i never feel like i’m ever good enough, i know i have like 2 followers but i hope you guys just ignore this, anyway, i’m not the best looking person in the world but i wish i was, i wish the people who actually matter to me would think that i was awesome and stuff, i just feel like my girlfriend/friends can do SO much better than me, they’re all so fucking amazing and lovely and i’m just boring old me, it’s just fucking pathetic, i used to do a lot of stupid fucking things but back then, i seemed to have more friends, now i have like what, 5? i have the most wonderful girlfriend but i still think she can do better than me and i’ve told her and it just comes across as attention seeking but i seriously have the lowest self esteem ever, guhesifdubhgoduj this is fucking horrible and now at the moment i’m 100 miles away from home at my mums house and i miss jeni and everything is going to fucking shit and i have a meeting tomorrow and i’m skint and i still feel the worst person in the world. okay, rant over, peace. x